I didn’t abandon you because I stopped loving you. I didn’t leave you to teach you a lesson or make you run after me.
I walked away from you because it was the only thing I could do, and because it was my last chance to save myself from your toxicity. Staying in that relationship would utterly destroy me. I had no other choice.
I saw that you would never become the man you were supposed to be. I did it because I saw that you and I could never have a future together. I left because you didn’t give me a reason to stay; because you made a hell out of my life, and because you made me miserable.
I left you because I finally realized that you would never put me first; that you would never love me the way I loved you and the way I deserved to be loved.
I left because I was tired of you – tired of being the only one fighting and the only one trying. I was tired of all the other chances and all the false promises. I was tired of lying to myself, so I can still love you.
I moved away from you even though it meant I had to break my own heart. I left you because staying with you would hurt me even more.
I left you because I finally saw that you never deserved me. I left you because I realized I needed someone better. Because I realized that I was much better off alone than stuck in that toxic relationship, and I’m sure I can do without you.
I left you because I still have faith that one day, a man who will fully surrender to me will come into my life – a man who will love me in all the ways I should be loved and a man who will be worthy of me.
So please don’t look for me once you start to regret the fact that you lost me. Do not try to come back into my life after you see that no woman will love you as much as I did and after you realize what you have done. Just once, be fair and let me go. Let me be happy away from you because it is the least I deserve.